christmas shopping and chardonnay

i am currently sitting on a comfy couch and drinking a much needed glass of wine. it's been one of those days, weeks, years? years. wow. end of another one isn't it. blows my mind a little bit more as the numbers slowly increase. i will soon be watching one of my best friends hit the alter and starting my second semester of nursing school while my best-est friend in the whole world is caring for her second child. and the world keeps turning. makes you feel so small sometimes. (this post may be a bit of a ramble but that's okay, and if you're reading you may want to get used to that cause that's how my mind tends to flow) speaking of how small i've been feeling, not in the sense of depressing insignificance, but more in the pure magnitude of our universe; let's do a little "imagine this". take a city. standing in the streets of this city everything around you seems so important and the only thing bigger than you is the buildings you walk past, not too intimidating (depending on your feelings about buildings), but definitely a large part of your world while you're walking through the streets. now say you move to the top of a hill, and the sun is falling and the lights of the city are coming to life. now this city seems far more beautiful and much larger, or perhaps a great deal tinier, than it was while you were standing in it's streets. you start to appreciate the extent of your little world, not too big, not too small. but then you take a hike, and you reach the top of a mountain and  you begin to realize just how tiny your "city" is and how insignificant it is in comparison to the mountain or the sky or the surrounding landscape. and then there's you. this tiny little creature that, if you were to fall off the mountain would fall as dust rolling off a desk. but i digress, the great part about this feeling is that you can for a moment experience pure power and beauty, i'm not sure about you but it just makes my heart sing. what i guess i'm getting at is that is how my entire life has felt lately. this leveling of everything and this appreciation for just how amazing our world is. even driving up my tiny little hill and seeing the frost and the snow cover the trees, branch by branch, it makes you think. you may feel tiny and small and insignificant, but even the frost is intricately shaped and draped on each branch, imagine how that piece of frost feels? probably pretty big compared to the dust on the ground.

p.s. the song i'm currently listening to, "Ar Dân" by Iwan Rheon (which translates from welsh to "On Fire") is beyond appropriate for the way this post went & i'd love to post a link or even a download but can't seem to figure out how to do so. so i'll leave you with another of his addicting melodies. have a beautiful night all.