my manic and i

so here goes. the words of the song im hearing are telling me "die your hair suicide blonde" and i can't help but giggle. i'm currently listening to one of my pandora radio stations, started with laura marlings name and has kind of morphed into this quiet playlist of songs i've never heard of but fall in love with immediatly. i can't bookmark them fast enough. and the words flow so sweetly with acoustic melodies and songs from the weepies and imogen heap in the mix. it makes me smile. my favorite song lately though is my manic and i by laura marling. you just have to hear it. it just makes sense, or maybe just to me, been a little manic lately myself. but not in the uppety run around cleaning like a psycho. just plain psycho. =] hah. whatevers though the last few days have been good and mellow and nice. i hope this agreement between me and my world continues because i really like this loved feeling that i've been getting. especially from patrick. its all happiness on that front for now, and hopefully for a long time. its past due and he deserves some peace the way i've berated him during my sessions of madness. he's put up with me and in a way we've both been rewarded. we make 1 yr 1 mnth in two days time. =]. yay. gotta remember to focus tomorrow though and pick my clean clothes up of my floor and get to work on my we the people book because school starts back up on the 13th. i really should be doing something more productive with my time, like being social with more than just my boyfriend, and on occasion my family. gotta get my life straightened out, prioritize. first: school work. second: college applications and scholarships! third: family...that shoulda been first. see my problem? well gonna go see what the madre is up to. i think house might be on soon. love.