i am so tired and yet i have homework and i cant push myself to do it as much as i cant not do it. ugh. i need to sleep more and eat more during the day. i like starve myself at school and if i do eat its tasteless and nutritionlesss (if thats even a word) and im starving right after school. blah. had an orange that made me feel better and i read about how sunflowers and raisins will give you a burst of energy so i might stock up so i can get through my days more easily. i've been napping as much as i can get. =].
anyway tomorrow should be nice and relaxing i hope. gonna try not to be evil to pat like i was today. i really dont want to lose him and i feel like the things i say push him a way. stupid me.
got some french work to finish up and gonna finish my book, one chapter left.
p.s. im sorry if ive been in a bitchy mood lately. idk what it is. i think its all the stress of school cause it is all completely overwhelming, especially college and scholarships. everyone has their own thing going on and most of them are right on track and im struggling to have a relationship and a good gpa. its strange. ive also been very rant-y lately. so if i go off on you don't take it the wrong way, i guess i just have a strong opinion on some things. like the whole god thing, which i was thinking about talking about but id rather save it for another time. don't get me wrong, i'm pretty open minded.
night creatures.
i'd like to hear your "whole God thing" opinion, hahaha.
ReplyDeletereplying to your last comment. i wouldn't exactly go to the conclusion that america is necessarily a "prude" country. it's true that in places like europe there's nude beaches and legal prostitution, but when does that make it right? myspace and facebook most likely don't allow breastfeeding pictures and pictures of body parts because they deem it inappropriate, and i'd rather not see someone's boobs either, haha. but it's just that you have to understand that yeah, people can easily show off their bodies unlike others, and others feel far more comfortable. but it's a matter of being humble, confident in who you are rather than what you look like, and taking satisfaction in the fact that if a guy doesn't look at you because you're not dressed to his standards, than what's the use in trying to seduce him or attract him anyway? you need to understand how beautiful your body is and how sacred it is. it's not something for the entire world to see, let alone the town of lahaina, or let alone a little beach in italy. and plus, even if men aren't oggling women constantly or anything like that, you know the state our country's mind is in. where there's these standards, expectations, and you hear and see people downgrading themselves to meet them. there's no dignity anymore. there's no one cherishing the more important things in life. we're so consumed in what we feel we need to look like rather than improving the state of our mind's wellbeing and our education on the most important things in life. we're growing more and more tolerant of degrading things. we're settling, kelsey. and maybe i'm just a prude, but i think that the people of this world have completely skewed and screwed eachothers ideas and opinions of what they think they should expect. i'm so brutally convicted, and the world has yet to own up to the mistakes they've made. it's only a matter of time before we're completely tolerant and the worst of the worst is the norm. it looks like it's starting to be that way already.
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